Creative thoughts

So here is the deal. I make all these goals and have all these amazing ideas. Songs I want to write, stories I want to write, crafts I want to make, gifts I want to give. Yet, the follow through I just can't do. How do you take all of your wonderful ideas, intentions and actually follow through and do them? How do you find the time, motivation and not get too overwhelmed by the real thing? How do I give myself the shot of confidence and ambition now that I'm an adult and all those dreams seem so far away. I'm trying to make goals, but then I sit down at the computer or piano, or at the craft and it's like the doubts, the work involved the reality that I'm not the best at anything just comes crowding in, let alone my daily responsibilities. If you have any ideas I'd love to hear them. So much I want to do, but following through is killing me.

Organizing

So I've watched so many Clean Sweep and Clean House episodes and am trying to organize my cluttered home where I lose stuff all the time, I'm starting to dreaming of totes, storage baskets, shelves, labels, files, new hard flooring, open spaces so I can't even sleep with this weighing on me. I really am excited though, because last Saturday I went through all of my clothes storage and took the whole back of my van's worth to D.I. of clothes I don't wear anymore, clothes that are worn, clothes that won't store well.

I am trying to go through my piles of papers again, I couldn't find Jacob's soccer schedule I lose books, everything even with the organizing I have been doing, so I have so much more to do. Simplifying has been key, but we probably have another 3 loads we could take to D.I. I'm going to talk to my hubby about taking some time with me this weekend to look at stuff I feel guilty about deciding without him.

Also, I'm trying to eat more healthy, but I'm also trying to use what we have in the house, which include cream soups, packets, white pasta etc.. I've felt depressed about exercising with the weather turning cold recently. When we had the real Spring-like weather I went on walks every day and often at night to put Emmy to sleep, I am being concious of drinking more water and trying not to stay up quite so late.

I'm working on my millions of projects and ideas, it is one of my great weaknesses to start things but not finish so my great goals to complete something each week, really work on my starter projects. We'll I've announced it to the world, so bye for now so I can follow through on these great ideas.

Not so good idea

So, I tried the one month shopping thing, not such a good idea. Its the end of the month and I ended up going over budget because we had run out of groceries two weeks early. Yes, I still have stuff from the big shopping, but I think the key really is meal planning. Which is easier to do on a weekly basis, still buy that bulk stuff but spread it out over the month into the weekly shopping. Good news is I still have a months worth of diapers and wipes I won't have to buy next month and it will probably even itself out over two months, but I find it easier to stay on budget and have what I need with the weekly shopping, much better idea.

Also, even though my husband has been willing, I've been lax about taking my night off, infact I haven't taken a decent night off for a month at least. Yes, my husband broke his pinky and had a cast, then I had to do emergency bill paying, then a tax night, then just get caught up on the house night. So I'm arranging with my mom and sisters to have a girl night, and then take off for a library, shopping, exercise night. Just plan ahead and be prepared for a night off, I really do need them and they truly contribute to my sanity and happiness. I am also looking into taking an art class or a math class (so I can finish a promise I made to a professer long ago, whole different story). I was able to have a book group for an hour last week and I have a wonderful neighbor who helps out so much. In fact she just came over so she could get out of the house and we just visited while I did housework, and she pitched in too, it was so fun, now that is a good idea.