Friday, October 8, 2010

Creative thoughts

So here is the deal. I make all these goals and have all these amazing ideas. Songs I want to write, stories I want to write, crafts I want to make, gifts I want to give. Yet, the follow through I just can't do. How do you take all of your wonderful ideas, intentions and actually follow through and do them? How do you find the time, motivation and not get too overwhelmed by the real thing? How do I give myself the shot of confidence and ambition now that I'm an adult and all those dreams seem so far away. I'm trying to make goals, but then I sit down at the computer or piano, or at the craft and it's like the doubts, the work involved the reality that I'm not the best at anything just comes crowding in, let alone my daily responsibilities. If you have any ideas I'd love to hear them. So much I want to do, but following through is killing me.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Marriage thoughts

Yesterday one of my cousins was married. He and his wife were both a little older, early thirties. They had a beautiful dinner and reception, wasn't only the venue beautiful (the UofU MOA) but most importantly they took the time to mingle and visit with everyone one on one. You felt important and stories were told about them and their courtship, they both seemed so at peace and you could feel a beautiful spirit in the room, so happy they found eachother. He has a crazy job where he has been off in Siberia and a few weeks from now they'll be going to Indonesia for an adventure with his job. While he was in Siberia and Tulsa (for training) Sarah(his wife) has been coming to all the family activities and already feels part of the family, so down to earth, sweet, sensitive, loyal. I am so happy for them.

I thought of my marriage, I was so young, but I've grown and developed so much, our love has developed so much, we just had to do our growing up together, I wonder would it would be like to already be grown up when you get married like this couple? Yet at the same time I think I needed Gordon's strength and love and the trials we've been through to get where I am. And I still feel I'm just a child still always learning, so unaware, still trying to get a handle on things.

I also loved going to their reception because of the long drive, I know that sounds silly, but that is when Gordon and I talk the best is in the car, no kids to distract, just time to talk, we make resolutions, talk about things we need to in our life, and get on the same page. Our wonderful friends the Tenney's watched our kids, I feel I am always in their debt and though they are younger then us, they've already gone far and beyond and we can look to them as examples in so many ways.

I thought of all the girl friends I have and how Gordon's always been supportive of those relationships, smart really. He realizes I always am a happier person and less needy when I make the time for friends. I am so grateful for my marriage, for my husband, the examples of couples around us, and the support I feel and how we are constantly learning and growning through our whole lives.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Society thoughts

I've had a few thoughts. I was thinking of the problem of our overflowing jails. I was thinking of our healthcare expenses and these are some ideas. I wonder if we had more immediate and a little more sever punishments if there would be less crime, if the temptation wouldn't be as enticing to commit crime if there would more of a consequence.

This relates to health care because I understand a lot of the expense comes from suits, so what if there was a consequence (like having to cover the court and attorney fees for the person/organization they are sueing). What if caps were put on pain and suffering claims? What if every doctor worked with a partner that they could consult with, get a second opinion, and cover when they are gone so they aren't working too many hours? Doctors who did this would get a tax deduction and/or cheaper lawsuit coverage? What if every health appeal, or wrongful doing went through arbitration with a panel of educated doctors on the panel reviewing the case?

What if parents who were able to work through their problems and stay together in marriage and are attentive nurturing parents got tax credits and those who neglect and ignore their children and their education are taxed for it. Maybe recommendations from teachers and doctors allowing tax breaks? Some random brainstorming, ideas, loved to hear what you think.