So I've watched so many Clean Sweep and Clean House episodes and am trying to organize my cluttered home where I lose stuff all the time, I'm starting to dreaming of totes, storage baskets, shelves, labels, files, new hard flooring, open spaces so I can't even sleep with this weighing on me. I really am excited though, because last Saturday I went through all of my clothes storage and took the whole back of my van's worth to D.I. of clothes I don't wear anymore, clothes that are worn, clothes that won't store well.
I am trying to go through my piles of papers again, I couldn't find Jacob's soccer schedule I lose books, everything even with the organizing I have been doing, so I have so much more to do. Simplifying has been key, but we probably have another 3 loads we could take to D.I. I'm going to talk to my hubby about taking some time with me this weekend to look at stuff I feel guilty about deciding without him.
Also, I'm trying to eat more healthy, but I'm also trying to use what we have in the house, which include cream soups, packets, white pasta etc.. I've felt depressed about exercising with the weather turning cold recently. When we had the real Spring-like weather I went on walks every day and often at night to put Emmy to sleep, I am being concious of drinking more water and trying not to stay up quite so late.
I'm working on my millions of projects and ideas, it is one of my great weaknesses to start things but not finish so my great goals to complete something each week, really work on my starter projects. We'll I've announced it to the world, so bye for now so I can follow through on these great ideas.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
A Goal
I decided there are not enough books with a religious theme or moral attached. I'm particularly surprized at the lack of Christmas books with even a mention of Christ even at the religious bookstores. So I announcing to the world (maybe that will help keep me motivated) I'm going to write a Christmas book with some religion in it. The basic idea at this point a mother sitting on the couch with her children and they ask her questions and she tells them stories of Jesus, maybe a song the mother makes up to tell a story or a poem included as well, since poetry comes easier to me. So those are my thoughts at this point. I was strenghtened by reading an article in the Ensign about goals and how it is Satan who discourages us and makes us think we can't accomplish things. I've always wanted to write and I need to keep to those goals and not let Satan discourage me.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Feeling better
I don't remember the last time we've had a set of illness like we've had the last two months, it is so nice for us to all go to church together today, it seems like it has been a long time. It is so nice to be able to get out of the house and socialize and even though it is freezing we've gone for walks and enjoyed the outdoors and the sun shining in the cold.
Being sick always helps motivate you to keep yourself healthy and appreciate our bodies. My son just read me five books, easy real early reader books but it is so exciting. A whole new world opens with reading and you get to experience another person's life through a book, sparks imagination and learning, he even said he wants to learn piano now and I have to try to hide how excited I am.
My oldest just earned over 100 smiley faces so she got a bike, not a little kid bike anymore and it hit me how she is growing up too fast. She is tall for her age, of course, so I feel this growing up too fast even more. I have a hard time finding little girl clothes for her and she wants to be so independent. She still likes me to sing to her every night and likes to read with me even though she protests at first.
My baby's little feet patter all over the house, running here and there. Wants to take a bath all the time loves playing in the water and is sad she can't go in when we take her siblings to swim lessons. I love taking her for walks and her attention span has grown where I can read her more interesting books. I love doing music with the kids, it was inspiring to hear how some of the best academic schools in the country require music and the fine arts in large quanities to the kids in those schools and help me keep to my commitment to require my kids to take music lessons.
Anyways, its nice to feel better, to feel the sun on our faces, to not turn into permanent hermits and to be able to go to church again.
Being sick always helps motivate you to keep yourself healthy and appreciate our bodies. My son just read me five books, easy real early reader books but it is so exciting. A whole new world opens with reading and you get to experience another person's life through a book, sparks imagination and learning, he even said he wants to learn piano now and I have to try to hide how excited I am.
My oldest just earned over 100 smiley faces so she got a bike, not a little kid bike anymore and it hit me how she is growing up too fast. She is tall for her age, of course, so I feel this growing up too fast even more. I have a hard time finding little girl clothes for her and she wants to be so independent. She still likes me to sing to her every night and likes to read with me even though she protests at first.
My baby's little feet patter all over the house, running here and there. Wants to take a bath all the time loves playing in the water and is sad she can't go in when we take her siblings to swim lessons. I love taking her for walks and her attention span has grown where I can read her more interesting books. I love doing music with the kids, it was inspiring to hear how some of the best academic schools in the country require music and the fine arts in large quanities to the kids in those schools and help me keep to my commitment to require my kids to take music lessons.
Anyways, its nice to feel better, to feel the sun on our faces, to not turn into permanent hermits and to be able to go to church again.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Tuesday afternoon in March
Wind blown freshness sweeps the quiet day
Chimes tinkle across the street
A solitary ‘helicopter’ and leaf surrenders its way to earth
Snow tips the mountain tops, stalwart frozen sure
Yet, in the valley movement beneath the imposing stillness
Growth beneath the ground, children running on forgotten grass
Sunshine blue sky with wispy clouds pattern shadows on the mountain
A cry as children fall, band aids, noses wiped, kisses, loves
The yellow bus comes, matching the post-winter colors, my boy off to school
Preparing for writing group, computer keys click and pause
A house gone quiet, a hum of a computer, blinking of the answering machine
Reflection and peace a moment like a prayer on a quiet afternoon in March
Chimes tinkle across the street
A solitary ‘helicopter’ and leaf surrenders its way to earth
Snow tips the mountain tops, stalwart frozen sure
Yet, in the valley movement beneath the imposing stillness
Growth beneath the ground, children running on forgotten grass
Sunshine blue sky with wispy clouds pattern shadows on the mountain
A cry as children fall, band aids, noses wiped, kisses, loves
The yellow bus comes, matching the post-winter colors, my boy off to school
Preparing for writing group, computer keys click and pause
A house gone quiet, a hum of a computer, blinking of the answering machine
Reflection and peace a moment like a prayer on a quiet afternoon in March
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Good Books
This last year I've read several good books. Most of them are Young adult books.
Fablehaven series
Alex Rider series
Ranger's apprentice series (By John Flanagan)
Princess Academy, Goose girl, Enna Burning and more of Shannon Hale's books
I did like the Twilight series, but I felt those were more adult books, but they were captivating and I enjoyed the stories.
I find that I go through passions and episodes of nervous energy that take their form into different interests. So last week I read all three of the Shannon Hale books I have listed and have three on hold at the library. Books right now are a passion, better than my last passion of mastering different games on dotblu. I'm also getting into a crochetting passion that is actually productive, in my dreams I'm imagining a homemade Christmas that will be all prepared for months in advance.
So currently I'm making slippers for M and hopefully my passion for crochetting will continue through the rest of crochetted items for the rest of the family before the end of October which is my goal, this year will be different I'll actually be able to have a wonderful Christmas free of stress and just be able to enjoy my family without any stress because I'll be all prepared (maybe this year it won't just be a dream).
During one of my passion fits I painted a murial on my kitchen door, that after the inital fit it took me months to complete. It is great when I get in my writing fits and I'm able to just have words and stories flow out of me and I can't get enough written down. I'm getting better about taking charge of these episodes starting to recognize them and hopefully I'll be able to direct them towards what I want want to accomplish like writting and hopefully completing a novel, short story or children's book. It seems I get in the mode, then I stop when the energy's gone and I need to just keep myself going so it doesn't take me so long to finish projects.
My children are always my passion. I love sitting down and letting my creative energy correspond with my kids and we'll build legos together, draw, cook together, decorate, something I need to do more of, no regrets with that time together. I love making music together and for them, playing on the piano singing. Sometimes we all sing, just different songs all our own, chaotic but at the same time beautiful. I do notice I'm a better parent when whatever my passion is I let the children in on it too, do artwork at the same time I am, sit where they are playing while I read, make a story up together, have them show me a puppet show.
My husband, what can I say, he is the love and passion of my life, a energy source for me of love. How come he loves me I don't always know, esspecially when I've had some bad days and not the nices person to be around. Yet, he does, he loves me and I love him and it is an unconditional love, a love that also radiates to our kids and is beautiful. I love people, their lifes, how they are doing, their stories, their essence their variety and personalities. We went out with my sister and her husband and they just make me laugh, so funny and I just love to be around them. Our interests, our fits of passion for different things make life interesting, unpredicable, a bit chaoic, but that is what life is about, as long as some balance is infused with the rest.
Fablehaven series
Alex Rider series
Ranger's apprentice series (By John Flanagan)
Princess Academy, Goose girl, Enna Burning and more of Shannon Hale's books
I did like the Twilight series, but I felt those were more adult books, but they were captivating and I enjoyed the stories.
I find that I go through passions and episodes of nervous energy that take their form into different interests. So last week I read all three of the Shannon Hale books I have listed and have three on hold at the library. Books right now are a passion, better than my last passion of mastering different games on dotblu. I'm also getting into a crochetting passion that is actually productive, in my dreams I'm imagining a homemade Christmas that will be all prepared for months in advance.
So currently I'm making slippers for M and hopefully my passion for crochetting will continue through the rest of crochetted items for the rest of the family before the end of October which is my goal, this year will be different I'll actually be able to have a wonderful Christmas free of stress and just be able to enjoy my family without any stress because I'll be all prepared (maybe this year it won't just be a dream).
During one of my passion fits I painted a murial on my kitchen door, that after the inital fit it took me months to complete. It is great when I get in my writing fits and I'm able to just have words and stories flow out of me and I can't get enough written down. I'm getting better about taking charge of these episodes starting to recognize them and hopefully I'll be able to direct them towards what I want want to accomplish like writting and hopefully completing a novel, short story or children's book. It seems I get in the mode, then I stop when the energy's gone and I need to just keep myself going so it doesn't take me so long to finish projects.
My children are always my passion. I love sitting down and letting my creative energy correspond with my kids and we'll build legos together, draw, cook together, decorate, something I need to do more of, no regrets with that time together. I love making music together and for them, playing on the piano singing. Sometimes we all sing, just different songs all our own, chaotic but at the same time beautiful. I do notice I'm a better parent when whatever my passion is I let the children in on it too, do artwork at the same time I am, sit where they are playing while I read, make a story up together, have them show me a puppet show.
My husband, what can I say, he is the love and passion of my life, a energy source for me of love. How come he loves me I don't always know, esspecially when I've had some bad days and not the nices person to be around. Yet, he does, he loves me and I love him and it is an unconditional love, a love that also radiates to our kids and is beautiful. I love people, their lifes, how they are doing, their stories, their essence their variety and personalities. We went out with my sister and her husband and they just make me laugh, so funny and I just love to be around them. Our interests, our fits of passion for different things make life interesting, unpredicable, a bit chaoic, but that is what life is about, as long as some balance is infused with the rest.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Things I Like
My son’s cut-out shapes, colorings of spaceships and giants, his snowflakes he makes
M’s sweet notes, helping with her siblings (especially in the early mornings)
E sleeping through the night and playing so well, her sweet cuddles
I like to cuddle with my husband and read a book together or watch a show
I love a good book, a challenging song on the piano, a challenging game
I love stories, I love people, variety of life experiences and sharing
I like sunny days with blue skies and melting snow
Song birds singing in the afternoon and evening (not in the morning)
I love exploring finding treasures in nature, hiking, the open air
The thrill of catching a fish, successfully completing a hike,
Having shared experiences, discussing different points of view
Feeling comradery and friendship, well being among those I meet and know
I like successfully making a new recipe and others enjoying it too
The smell of fresh baked bread, then eaten with butter and honey or jam
The good feeling of a good exercise and muscles being stretched and loose
I like hard work and seeing a job completed well, finishing a challenging project
Visiting with people, learning new things, discussing thoughts they and I have
Being of service, feeling needed, feeling appreciated and of worth
The warmth of the Holy Ghost after feeling Gods love, feeling forgiveness and purity
Reading the scriptures and a passage read being meant for me in a personal way
Praying in humility and feeling lifted and changed, able to see more clearly
Saying prayers with my family, holding them close to me knowing we love each other
My children’s hugs, their kisses, their smiles their love for me
Going on dates with my husband, going on dates as a family
Listening to music, changing channels discovering what I like for myself
Playing the piano in the evenings with a quite lonely stillness all around
Painting, creative writing rampages, drawing, creating, imagining
My husband’s songs, M’s songs, J’s songs, E’s songs
All unique creative all their own and so much them, I love to hear them sing and create
Bedtime stories reading together, singing songs at night, one-on-one time
Learning new skills that I can feel comfortable with and then try new things
Going to the temple once I’m finally there and feeling the peace
Teaching my children and seeing understanding and confidence in their eyes
Written Jan 20, 2009
M’s sweet notes, helping with her siblings (especially in the early mornings)
E sleeping through the night and playing so well, her sweet cuddles
I like to cuddle with my husband and read a book together or watch a show
I love a good book, a challenging song on the piano, a challenging game
I love stories, I love people, variety of life experiences and sharing
I like sunny days with blue skies and melting snow
Song birds singing in the afternoon and evening (not in the morning)
I love exploring finding treasures in nature, hiking, the open air
The thrill of catching a fish, successfully completing a hike,
Having shared experiences, discussing different points of view
Feeling comradery and friendship, well being among those I meet and know
I like successfully making a new recipe and others enjoying it too
The smell of fresh baked bread, then eaten with butter and honey or jam
The good feeling of a good exercise and muscles being stretched and loose
I like hard work and seeing a job completed well, finishing a challenging project
Visiting with people, learning new things, discussing thoughts they and I have
Being of service, feeling needed, feeling appreciated and of worth
The warmth of the Holy Ghost after feeling Gods love, feeling forgiveness and purity
Reading the scriptures and a passage read being meant for me in a personal way
Praying in humility and feeling lifted and changed, able to see more clearly
Saying prayers with my family, holding them close to me knowing we love each other
My children’s hugs, their kisses, their smiles their love for me
Going on dates with my husband, going on dates as a family
Listening to music, changing channels discovering what I like for myself
Playing the piano in the evenings with a quite lonely stillness all around
Painting, creative writing rampages, drawing, creating, imagining
My husband’s songs, M’s songs, J’s songs, E’s songs
All unique creative all their own and so much them, I love to hear them sing and create
Bedtime stories reading together, singing songs at night, one-on-one time
Learning new skills that I can feel comfortable with and then try new things
Going to the temple once I’m finally there and feeling the peace
Teaching my children and seeing understanding and confidence in their eyes
Written Jan 20, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Enough whining
I read my last post and was embarrassed about my whining. I read the sweetest blog by one of my friends about a couple in our ward who are going through some tough times. You know, I live a dream life. I have a wonderful husband who loves me even when I don't understand how he could. I have sweet children who amaze me every day. I have my two year old who is still my baby even though I'd like another one. I have good food, a nice house, a musical, loud imaginative household. My own prince Charming, my own snow white, albert einstein and little cinderella children.
How dream like is my life. I cuddle and watch a show almost every night with my husband while he rubs my back. I'm able to stay home with my children during the day and while the older ones are gone to school and my baby is playing by herself or napping I can write, visit, read a book. I have a nice house at a great interest rate. I have a body that doesn't work perfectly but is strong and usually healthy. Right now I have a cold and have been feeling sorry for myself, but no more whining, I'll feel all better soon and I better do something good with this wonderful life I've been blessed with.
I'm a firm believer in "where much is given, much is required." When I compare myself to others I feel guilty about how well things have gone, though it is so easy to focus on the negative and hard times, I've been so blessed. Therefore, more is required of me because I haven't had as many of the trials of many I know. It is my job to serve, help, volunteer, do my best, be happy, learn more, grow more and build others up around me and be the best mom, the best homemaker, the best person I can be. I have a family who loves me, I was raised well, I have a brain and a body that functions well enough. Let me be an intstrument in the hands of the Lord, that is where fulfillment comes, and I know it.
How dream like is my life. I cuddle and watch a show almost every night with my husband while he rubs my back. I'm able to stay home with my children during the day and while the older ones are gone to school and my baby is playing by herself or napping I can write, visit, read a book. I have a nice house at a great interest rate. I have a body that doesn't work perfectly but is strong and usually healthy. Right now I have a cold and have been feeling sorry for myself, but no more whining, I'll feel all better soon and I better do something good with this wonderful life I've been blessed with.
I'm a firm believer in "where much is given, much is required." When I compare myself to others I feel guilty about how well things have gone, though it is so easy to focus on the negative and hard times, I've been so blessed. Therefore, more is required of me because I haven't had as many of the trials of many I know. It is my job to serve, help, volunteer, do my best, be happy, learn more, grow more and build others up around me and be the best mom, the best homemaker, the best person I can be. I have a family who loves me, I was raised well, I have a brain and a body that functions well enough. Let me be an intstrument in the hands of the Lord, that is where fulfillment comes, and I know it.
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