Marriage thoughts

Yesterday one of my cousins was married. He and his wife were both a little older, early thirties. They had a beautiful dinner and reception, wasn't only the venue beautiful (the UofU MOA) but most importantly they took the time to mingle and visit with everyone one on one. You felt important and stories were told about them and their courtship, they both seemed so at peace and you could feel a beautiful spirit in the room, so happy they found eachother. He has a crazy job where he has been off in Siberia and a few weeks from now they'll be going to Indonesia for an adventure with his job. While he was in Siberia and Tulsa (for training) Sarah(his wife) has been coming to all the family activities and already feels part of the family, so down to earth, sweet, sensitive, loyal. I am so happy for them.

I thought of my marriage, I was so young, but I've grown and developed so much, our love has developed so much, we just had to do our growing up together, I wonder would it would be like to already be grown up when you get married like this couple? Yet at the same time I think I needed Gordon's strength and love and the trials we've been through to get where I am. And I still feel I'm just a child still always learning, so unaware, still trying to get a handle on things.

I also loved going to their reception because of the long drive, I know that sounds silly, but that is when Gordon and I talk the best is in the car, no kids to distract, just time to talk, we make resolutions, talk about things we need to in our life, and get on the same page. Our wonderful friends the Tenney's watched our kids, I feel I am always in their debt and though they are younger then us, they've already gone far and beyond and we can look to them as examples in so many ways.

I thought of all the girl friends I have and how Gordon's always been supportive of those relationships, smart really. He realizes I always am a happier person and less needy when I make the time for friends. I am so grateful for my marriage, for my husband, the examples of couples around us, and the support I feel and how we are constantly learning and growning through our whole lives.

Feeling better

I don't remember the last time we've had a set of illness like we've had the last two months, it is so nice for us to all go to church together today, it seems like it has been a long time. It is so nice to be able to get out of the house and socialize and even though it is freezing we've gone for walks and enjoyed the outdoors and the sun shining in the cold.

Being sick always helps motivate you to keep yourself healthy and appreciate our bodies. My son just read me five books, easy real early reader books but it is so exciting. A whole new world opens with reading and you get to experience another person's life through a book, sparks imagination and learning, he even said he wants to learn piano now and I have to try to hide how excited I am.

My oldest just earned over 100 smiley faces so she got a bike, not a little kid bike anymore and it hit me how she is growing up too fast. She is tall for her age, of course, so I feel this growing up too fast even more. I have a hard time finding little girl clothes for her and she wants to be so independent. She still likes me to sing to her every night and likes to read with me even though she protests at first.

My baby's little feet patter all over the house, running here and there. Wants to take a bath all the time loves playing in the water and is sad she can't go in when we take her siblings to swim lessons. I love taking her for walks and her attention span has grown where I can read her more interesting books. I love doing music with the kids, it was inspiring to hear how some of the best academic schools in the country require music and the fine arts in large quanities to the kids in those schools and help me keep to my commitment to require my kids to take music lessons.

Anyways, its nice to feel better, to feel the sun on our faces, to not turn into permanent hermits and to be able to go to church again.